I lie in silence

Concealing failure, muting trouble Colouring illusionary visuals

Smudged in exaggeration and shaded by half-truths, An accomplice to the great performative deception

My social feed is binary:

Joy in victory,

Happiness found in inspirational living

Or righteous indignation,

Victims and struggles of institutionalised oppression

I hold the privilege of being the author of my own malaise

My pain fashioned through my own karmic creations Wallowing in self-pity

Doubt, guilt, shame, anger, frustration…. Negativity is my mind’s obsession Depression is a regular companion

Addiction is my secret a iction

I fantasise of a glorious future

Day dream of an idealized version of self One victorious, peaceful, inspirational

One far, far removed from the man in the mirror

Quiet on the treacherous journey to peace Enabling the conspiracy of tranquil bliss Laundering a sanitised persona Guilty as charged of distortive truth,

I lie in Silence